it's true. i've been terribly behind with pretty much everything lately. this summer went by so quickly, with almost every weekend traveling or having people over. it's been a summer filled with incredible ups and painful downs.

let's just say the pits of my days have been unknown chronic shoulder and neck pain that continues to haunt my happy energy and overall health. i love to run. i miss running. i miss the energy and focus to exercise regularly. i miss my size 8 jeans. i miss sleeping a solid 8 hours without waking up to do PT stretches, or apply some stinky cream that brings me two minutes of relief, or popping pills that are completely worthless. i miss the days when my kids don't ask if i have a doctor appointment(s) that day. i miss my size 8 jeans (bears repeating). i miss pain-free days. 

pain is sad. pain is dark. pain changes people. pain sucks. 

there is hope. i have to believe! physical therapy has helped me retrain my body to use the right muscles. it's a slow process. and painful. physical therapy is hard work. one of the weekly treatments i did that really brought me substantial relief was traction.

here's a little selfie i took at one of my appointments. 

i love quotes, and ironically this one was the 'quote of the day' on my phone today - "we are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars." ~oscar wilde 

But the real and lasting quote that has stuck with me through all this can be found in the book of psalms, chapter 73, verse 26. 

my flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

amen. ~xoox